2 days oops

     Hey there fellow humans.  It might be weird that I'm writing about yesterday but oh well.  So I had a really awesome day yesterday. It may have started out with a stupid midterm but it ended just feeling peaceful.  After my midterm I rushed off to my second school of the day to a CSUF Next Steps Workshop.  I was just a few minutes late but I am really happy that I went.  The information was very helpful and confirmed that I will be in debt for a long time. haha That is just college life though.  It will be worth it in the end though when I had my beautiful career and am shaping the minds of the future adults of America.  Oh also I saw one of my friends from school there that I haven't seen in such a long time.  Turns out he applied for CSUF for spring but didn't make it to it being so impacted but he made it for fall so I'm excited that I won't be alone when I go there.  Not sure if I will run into him but it will still be comforting to know he is going there.  Wow that sounds weird but I'm sure someone gets it.
     Honestly, I can't wait to move on CSUF. It has been my dream for so long now and I can nearly touch it.  I'm almost there!  I'm the first in my family to be graduating community college with an AA in anything!  I feel like I am making my parents really proud to be going to Cal State now.  It is funny because my dad says , "It makes me so happy that you are graduating from community college.  You know you are the first one in this family to be getting a degree, let alone just attending college with some sort of direction.  I get to brag to everyone that my daughter is actually going somewhere in life that she will be happy and successful."  I'm guessing that means proud. haha It is going to be amazing when I finally graduate with my  BA.  I will finally feel like I have done something with my life and can move on from my childhood life haha

Moving on...

The next part of my involved school mostly but there was one moment when I realized "Wow I'm actually happy right now."  It was when I was driving to my second school and I was pumping my new Christina Perri CD and I was totally dancing in my car.  Don't worry I was at a red light haha  The cool thing was that in this moment I didn't care what others thought of me and I was going all out, clapping and all.  The cool part is that for a moment I had looked over to the car next to me and there was a guy staring at me like "um okay" and he smiled at me.  Of course I started dancing even more and he JOINED me!  How awesome is that!  Being in a city that usually making eye contact with someone while in your car at a red light is usually seen as weird and uncomfortable, here I was totally dancing with this guy and creating good, fun memories.  I'm sure he had a good time as well, which is great.  There can be the smallest moments where you just stop caring about the negativity in your life and amazing things happen.  I feels good to know that I am indeed moving on and rediscovering myself.  Before what happened I would do stuff like this all the time.  Maybe that is why this moment is sort of special to me.  I feel like me.  I'm starting not to care about what others think about my actions.  I am SimplMEnotyou and that feels so lifting right now.  The more I don't care the better I am for it.




Let's Move onto today shall we?  It will be short don't worry.

So my dad today has decided to start working in the second half of the kitchen, so everything is demolished and the house is being torn apart due to plumping and other fancy things.  It is times like these that bring me back to my childhood.  The smells, sweet sweet smells.  All my life my dad has been working on our house and others.  So now whenever I walk into a room and new carpet has just been put in it smells like heaven and home to me.  Sometimes I get a little weird and just stand on the carpet bare footed, even if it isn't my house, and just rub my toes through the new carpet.  Weird I know but it was my childhood so I find it weird when people don't appreciate new carpet haha  Anyway right now the house smells  like sawdust and open air since all the windows are open.  Moment of the day so  far is when my grandpa told me to watch my step because I was barefooted in the working zone where there are nails and wood chips on  the floor as well as tools.  It made me laugh on the inside because this has been my life growing up.  I know to be careful but it has also become second nature.  I still enjoy it though.  The thought that they still see me as little haha funny men.